Under Stand

For a long time I was looking for recipes that would do something to get me out of where I was. Someplace better. A better feeling. Better performance. Restlessness searching for solutions. Some things helped, but mainly later in life. Much of what is shared is borne out of someone’s experience. Authentically expressed wisdom. Yet, the exploration for a solution out there has no end in sight. Partly because there are infinite permutations for describing the experience of life. So we can keep rearranging chairs and adding new ones. And because blindly following recipes is looking in from the outside. If you do A and B, then backflip to the right, you will unlock the next level. A line by line algorithmic clicking in search for freedom.

You, the reader, are the only person experiencing. From your perspective. Anything you read and hear that pertains to taking steps to get somewhere is only truly useful if understood. Otherwise, you’re going through the motions hoping to get it right. And of course, from sheer experience, you will learn, advance, and discover. But the richness of what’s available runs far deeper. It lies within you, not buried, but simply there, easy to access if you choose to look inward.

In is the quiet space that is felt. Life can be spontaneous or a bit unpredictable but nothing is truly random. There is consistency. You drop the ball. Throw it. You can make sense of what is happening. Hit the gas pedal and steer along the curve. You might not know the workings of the engine as I don’t know which proteins are growing my nails but being a witness, connected to experience, you get to see how things move. And if you step back to look at both the forest and the trees, you will notice how it’s all connected. There is not a single thing in this world that doesn’t have something it emerges from.

To feel and trust your inner sense can bring you to clarity. Be in the midst of seeing what connects one side to the other. It’s not always the fast and easy way, but taking it slow to understand gives you the power to cook without a recipe.